Who needs sleep?..........I DO!

Everyone always said that babies "turn a corner" around 6 weeks, so why then is my baby progressively getting worse? She is now 6 weeks and babies typically go through a growth spurt at 6 weeks, so I am going to give her the benefit of the doubt. It has only been one night that has been really bad, which was last night. I think she is getting a little cold, so she was unable to eat very much before she cannot breathe, and then she would only sleep for an hour before she would get hungry again. I am SO glad I went to bed at 8:30 last night, which I never do. I am really tired today. Why am I not napping now then? because a little boy by the name of Sam is calling for me from his bedroom as I type. I bet he is trying to trick me into thinking he already took his nap. Unfortunately for him, I know how to tell time and he has only been up there for 20 minutes and I have heard him up there the entire time playing. The girls are sleeping, hopefully for the next 2 hours. Maybe Sam will fall asleep, if not maybe he will watch a movie. I feel guilty about asking him to watch a movie, but hey you have to do what you have to do!

I have been getting more and more smiles from Sydney and even got some "talking" such as "agoo". It just melts your heart! I have been working SO hard to lose weight. With the other two children I just really focused on my exercise, which was easy for me, but this time I am also focusing on what I eat, which is REALLY difficult! But I have lost 3 pounds since Thursday, which has made such a difference in my mood. I have been working out 2 times a day every single day, but up until now I didn't reflect on the scale. After I had Anna, a friend said to me that it takes a long time to reach the same level of "smallness" that you were before. Meaning the smaller you are the longer it takes to get back there. That always stuck with me and has really helped me deal with the baby weight in a positive way. This is absolutely the most difficult part of having a baby for me. Getting pregnant, pregnancy, and even labor is really easy, but dealing with the lack of sleep, the weight, and juggling of needs is really difficult for me. It does get easier as time goes on, but it might just be the reason that makes me eventually stop having children. Something has to, right?